So, hey there. Time for some real talk, but you don't have to worry.
... well, you kinda do, but in a not terribly worrisome way.
Listen, here's the thing... I'm worn out. I am. Maybe it's work, maybe it's with moving out, maybe it's my (relative) lack of free time compared to when I (re)started this blog three years ago. But, whatever the reason, I'm just... worn out.
I'm sure that you've all noticed a general drop in the quality of my posts over the last year. Getting shorter, moving to fortnightly, then missing weeks...
So, here's the thing. Boy, oh boy do I say that a lot. But here it is - last Monday, I was meant to tell you about how my draft went. Well, it didn't - I was at a Christening instead, and stayed over to spend time with my new Goddaughter and family. And when I came home Tuesday I just... didn't. Then Wednesday passed, Thursday, Friday, and I thought "fine, I'll just do it Monday". But come Monday I realised - I didn't have anything to tell you about. Well, I did - I painted a Chaplain... but it wasn't especially impressive, but more importantly - I didn't feel the urge to.
And that's sorta when I realised - I'm not doing this because I enjoy it anymore. I'm doing it because that's what I do. And to be honest, it kinda feels more like work than an expression. I'm spend Sunday fretting over what to write about, and Monday procrastinating because I don't really want to stretch out a short update into a full post.
And then I think back to when I started, when I had posts ready to go, weeks in advance, just cos I had so many ideas, and wanted to get them down, and share them...
... So, here's the out and out of it; I'm going on Hiatus til I get my shit sorted. That might be the New Year, when I'm in my new place, and have some free time. That might be in five years, when I belatedly remember that I have a blog. I... I just honestly don't know.
But before I go... thank you. For coming here as often as you do, for putting up with my awful jokes, for giving me some way to express myself. I've really enjoyed my run on here, and I hope that I do come back. It's been a blast.
Volodanti out.
